Just to keep this shit around so I can ... reminisce about my... lovely little past, there

Dear Mike,

I dont mean to sound whiney and like the atypical clinical depression patient, but all this fighting is putting me over the edge. Ok so at home my life is a constant fight... Abuse? You name it we got it! :\ I'm not complaining, and I'm sorry if it seems like I am. I just need to vent...and this is a journal....my journal, in fact.... so...
Then theres the whole Kevin & Katie vs. Brian situation....I just got caught up today. It sucks, and is sad. Deep down inside, I know they care about eachother desparately, and thats why theyre so worked up. Brian's just saying this stuff to try to get through to Kev. To tell him that he's taking a dangerous path. To warn him. And Kevin just takes it as criticism. Did i spell that right? But any how, I really wish it would end.
And then the thing with scott? It just seems like he'll take anyone over me. I mean, I dont blame him...but we cant do anything without the twins...and that creepy gothic girl. i am sorry, but goths just really frighten me. I think its just that they kinda look like they have a halloween costume on 24/7. Sorry if I sound judgemental. Any how I am really kind of resenting their presence. Today I wanted to talk to Kevin....I wanted to vent to somebody about my conversation with you, and he's always been there for me so....and I wanted to go sit in the downstairs hall and talk. But before I could ask, he asked if we could go smoke. As you know, I quit almost a month ago, and am doin great, but I said ok, cuz i figured I could talk to him there. But no. We had to go where Scott and his cronies were (and Laranko and Nick). So I sat on the curb so I wouldnt smell like smoke when dad came to pick me up and just played with my cell. I finally got bored and kind of hurt, so I put on my sunglasses* and walked away. Kevin caught up with me and apologized, and I said it was fine. It was I guess. But when scott left, he did not say good bye. And that hurt immensely. I had to put on the sunglasses again.
Mike, when will it be over? When will the world find peace within eachother? I wish I lived with you. My main drama there would be how to spend my fight money. :P you know it babe lol. ::sigh....::

i LoVe YoU (i ThInK)

kElLy

BaCk FrOm SoUtH cArOlInA, and if you didn't notice, I Had a simply marvelous time! South Carolina was really really hot, but I got over it. Jon (long time best friend) admitted that he likes me...On the plane I was thinking about guys ::what else:: and decided I really LOVE mike...
Kim picked us up at the airport and we went to charleston. By now my feet were blistered and bloody cuz of my shoes and all the walking we did, So I switched to flip flops and we went to an Irish pub. We walked around charleston till dark after dinner. Around 8:30pm we left Charleston and around 10 we arrived at the place we were staying. My "grandmother" is a lot cooler and/but far more eccentric than my real grandparents...Their house is huge though! It has its own elevator!!!!!
Saturday morning I woke Brian up, talked to him a bit on my ::new cell phone:: and we went to the beach for hours. Then we went on my "uncle Toms" boat. I rode on the bow.... MAD FUN and My dad cracked jokes..."You mean THATS uncle toms cabin?!" Lol. I love him. Then we had a big family dinner...Kim, her mom, her moms mom,her moms moms sister, her moms moms sisters daughter, Kyle, Chandler, Erick (whose real name is John), Uncle Tom, Uncle Toms son Trip, Kims Dad, My Dad, and me. Sunday we came back.......I love my faux family....we're so good together.

Mas a bitch i hate her....She just cursed me out for trying to help, and Im surprised? I thought i knew her better.